Think of something that you always do everyday. Did you think of something? Now think of how you feel when you are unable to do it for whatever reason. Did you think about it? How do you feel?
The reason for all of those questions is because life is unpredictable and you never really know where it will take you or which way things will go. That's the problem so many of us want to be able to predict every aspect of our lives, but we can't. On the outside people always say "Just speak up" or "Ask for help" sometimes help is what is needed and talking isn't what will help. A person of habit is someone who does the same thing every single day without changing a thing and always does things the exact same way normally due to a fear of change. I know this, because I am a creature of habit as everyday I do the same exact thing. When I don't do something I normally do or I can't do something I normally do then I feel like something is wrong and I get anxious and nervous.
For the last 1 year straight I have posted at least two or more articles on my website much like I used to do here for the 2 years that I did blogs here. But for the last year nothing has ran interference in posting the articles as when I needed a break I called upon my writers to come through with a post or two. Recently things have been different I know it isn't burnout, because I have felt what burnout feels like but I still find writing difficult sometimes yet it's always been my escape like it is now.
I know that if the story was told then people would understand, but I can't understand and that is the problem because I am a creature of habit. Making something a habit is something that is ingrained in us back while we are in school as we are told to memorize this formula or spelling of a word or by solving a word problem the same way over and over by making it a habit. Change is a good thing, but only if it is the right thing to do as it could be a bad thing and make you regret the change and resent how things have changed. I guess what I'm trying to say is habits can hurt if you grow to accustomed to doing the same things the same way all the time.
Even if you get disappointed or anxious or nervous or scared or whatever emotion you feel it doesn't matter because it will go away if you let it. Point is confidence is a hard thing to find especially when you never knew you had it, and though you might have thought it only had to do with talking to people it doesn't it can also be tied to believing in yourself that what your doing is right and that your okay. Relax and enjoy life because it is too short to be nervous all of the time.
